maybe if every time someone started a conversation with me i didn’t bring the topic back around to myself people would actually want to talk to me but of course i’m selfish and will probably always think of myself before others

i have no empathy or sympathy for anyone because i wasn’t taught to feel like that

i wasn’t taught to feel at all. the only emotions i know are bone deep sadness and irrational anger towards everyone and everything

but i guess i deserve the sick feeling i get in my stomach every time someone i thought would actually stick around replaces me again

actually no

i know i deserve this because i know i’m a terrible person 

i wouldn’t want to be my friend either

• i’m being replaced (not that i’m surprised this happens every fucking time)
• this isn’t a safe place to live and i don’t really enjoy spending hours locked in my room so i don’t have to be part of the fights
• this is so fucking pathetic i don’t want to do this anymore 
• i CAN’T do this anymore

Hi Hannah!!! idk if you’ll ever get to see this because you don’t follow it but if you ever see this, I hope that it cheers you up! Anyways I wanted to tell you how much I love you and how wonderful you are! A lot of people care about you! Don’t ever forget that!!! You are honestly one of the closest friends I’ve ever had and I’ve told you things that my best friend doesnt even know because you actually care. Ahhh I love you a lot and don’t forget that you can always talk to me. I love yoooooooooooouuuuuu :****

theandersonhummelshow:

congrats to my internet friends for knowing things about me that i don’t even tell my closest friends

xoxo karen :*

its fucking sickening how many friedns ive lost because of one direction and because now all they want to talk about is one direction holy fuck i cant stand that “”“”“band”“”“” anymore (band used in the loosest term possible because bands write and make their OWN music)

i mean i wouldnt like me either

andof course anytime anything happens im always left out because im pretty sure people forget i exist if i dont make myself known and even then people just dont fucking care about me and never will

in every group of “friends” theres the person everyone pities and secretely dislikes and that person is me

im pretty sure im actually the most pitied person in all of history i have no good qualities why would anyone actually WANT to be friends with me other people will ALWAYS be chosen beforeme im not important im
not anything im a fucking mess and theres nobody to help me this time and there was nobody last time why am i even surprised this is happening again it never really stopped in the first place